Return to the Ayahuasca workshop…

On the way to the workshop it was though to get a cab to where I needed to go so it took lots and lots and lots of phone calls to make myself understood about where exactly I was going which is Hein boeicoposeweg I think that is how it is called. But it was hell to talk to six different Dutch people who didn’t have a clue of what I was saying! Damn that took me to hell and back… I was afraid I would get lost. But then everything just went really well managed to get the correct pronunciation and got to the place! Continue reading

Odette be…

Odette be…

Listening to my heart,
I pay attention to the many humdrum and the rhythm
of beats and vibrations resonating vibrating all over every inch of my entire body
my nerve centre and senses connect
Vibrations, sound and the sound is the law
one with the law and eternity…

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Some 3 weeks after taking Ayahuasca part-deux…

I stopped any sexual relations with others for nearly five months; I didn’t feel any need to connect in that way. Together with swimming and my meditation and exercises, I was finding new ways of channelling my own power. I just felt real love and a deep oneness with myself and I wanted to explore where this was taking me. During this period I was in search of more techniques to help me unlock and learn about my fears and their roots. I went to a sweat lodge; later I spent time in a shamanic Icarus ceremony. I also experienced drinking peyote, during which I cried a lot as a result – I really couldn’t stop crying. It was a very deep spiritual experience, especially the sweat lodge – I felt like I was in the womb of Mother Earth. Continue reading