It’s the eighth day, anyway, and it’s been really positive doing this. I’ve gotten to know myself quite a lot through this process, and to learn about the human body. I’ve just been decluttering my house, doing spring cleaning – clearing the inside and the outside; so that was an interesting process to develop while I’m doing this. I really enjoyed the fact that I cleaned all the walls; I’m hoping to go through all my drawers and wardrobe throughout the week and remove things that I don’t use or need: books, papers, anything that I don’t use or need, I will remove it from my environment and put it to some good, whether that’s giving it to a charity shop or giving it to a friend as a gift or something; but I will not keep things that I do not use any more unless they are truly vital things for my existence. And also rearranging things: that’s really something.
Well, I had the sixth and seventh day – Friday and Saturday – during which it was really difficult to keep focussed, because I felt really exhausted and I missed food, though in those two days I had about five or six nuts – I just binged on them. But it felt nice to just chew something; and also there were times when I ate those things occasionally, mostly after putting my son to bed, when I was quite drained and I did not have time to make the juice because it would take a long time to put him to bed afterwards. So I was running on empty a bit.
Today is the fourth day of my detox. I think I have to recap and say that on day two it was really good. I felt alive, bubbly, full of energy, and the juices were great. I had amazing juices from the Juice Master book and it was fantastic. I had a wonderful day with my son – it was brilliant. I can’t remember what we did, but we did lots of things anyway. And on the third day I found that really difficult: that was quite hard, especially towards the evening, when I cooked a lovely meal for my son – a nice chicken stew – and I love stews and winterish food. So that was hard. We had a really nice day, and I have to say that I haven’t felt this alive in ages – I feel so alive and so light, so full of energy. It’s fantastic. I really love this experience very much. I just really find it amazing that I feel great – I feel alive and full of energy.
This morning is the first day of my juice fasting. I started it last night just to have a taste of it, so I didn’t have dinner, and I’m kind of working with – I decided to do this perhaps for eleven days, or maybe more. I’m not sure – I want to see how I cope. I decided to take brewer’s yeast, which is a natural source of B-vitamins for the healthy functioning of the heart, brain and nervous system, and it’s 45% natural protein. I got it from Holland and Barrett’s, and it’s rich in various B-vitamins like thiamine, vitamin B1, vitamin B2, niacin, pantothenic acid, vitamin B6, choline, inositol and PBAs. I don’t know what they are, but I’m sure I can find out. The types of juices: the recipes for the juices that I have are from the book that came with my juice-squeezer, which is from this guy called Jason Vale, the juicemeister (the Juice Master). The reasons I decided to this: one of the reasons is that I’ve stopped smoking and drinking. I stopped smoking maybe on the first of January – in between I had perhaps five-ish, six cigarettes or sort of puffs of cigarettes, maybe, which haven’t all been at the same time. Just out with friends, smoking to see how it would feel, if I felt like buying more – and so far nothing. I think it was all in the mind somehow. I’ve been working on my anger – not voraciously but somewhat – and more actively dealing with my feelings and the sources that they come from, and the will to smoke has gone, mostly. So I’ve really been going underground to investigate my anger and how thoughts, things and events affect my anger.