Maybe I just have to accept that I can comfort myself here where I am alone, in this aloneness.
I am a woman: I love being alive, loved, love being worshiped.
It’s my birthright and the universe this earth made me so I am woman uniquely me and beautiful naturally sensual sexual a being from nature independent, yet codependent, vulnerable, and strong, see me I am here visible I am here alive, exposed, an art form, driven with my breath, warmth, brave, driven, weak, passionate, ecstatic, happy, aroused, amused, orgasmic, a lover, sexual.
One of a kind, a dedicated, mother, sister, lover, friend, caregiver, giver, receiver, tenderness, fun, loving, full of laughter. Inside me in my flesh in my womb there is blood there is warmth, with colours of reds, green, yellows, oranges, creams and purples and blues in variations of dark and light and the brightest of colours in my waters of warm and cold colours deep in my spring and lakes that run within me.
In my throat lies my voice and it’s deep and full of soul and passion. Sometimes it is raw and deep and sweet and strong, my passion is this breath and this life, and it becomes me and escapes me like the air going in my nostrils, through my skin, organs, my lungs and as oxygen flows through my blood it both sustains and devours the life of me it is my condition to live and die by being alive I am consumed by this state of conscious aliveness in moments I am present here within me and in you in these words and this page in this moment I am immortal you and I in this moment we are and we share it.
I am you, you me, I see you in me, one, infinitely, uniquely. United by this bond of life making love in my breath in this life and immortal way a state of being alive within this page I am free to roam and my consciousness in infinity… Touch and caress the depts within you intimate parts you don’t even know you have, I sense and touch and caress you I see you…
Freedom to experience, with senses. See and observe by a need to escape the confines of this what is called reality a simple aspect of this condition. With these words in which you and I share here I become everyday. I am who I remember… I discovered myself to be everyday. I am! I am these words that are coming out from the depths of my soul and being within me in the taste in my mouth and the back of my throat lies this thirst a thirst that makes me want, fills me with desire and I must fill these moments so I drive me out of myself I can’t contain my moments I can create with this desire. Like making love and expanding in this space in this perception you hold this power to allow me to expand. By receivng me with your heart and mind.
Consciousness, time and space. Enter into this space and let all of my being unite with all this space between you and me. All this life in this universe. This space the page I feel one with it all I am with you and all I am every day in my thoughts and my conscious accounts, the times and seconds, my heart beats, in and out my breath goes and thoughts and desires manifest on the page.
I feel full, with all the colours of my unsatisfied gazillion desires which race to the finite core of my human identity. Yet I am always these words to be there within then you see me here in these words this present form all that I understand myself to be in this specific moment in the consequence of words on this page right here present before your eyes to see presenting myself here in this form asking you to receive me as I understand you can release me receive me with an open mind and if your heart allows itself to adjust and melt into being open to what your mind understands and receives in word form. Then it can also melt into being an open door for my sounds, these words and information, you might allow these rhythms new sensations to etch themselves on your flesh in memory, and you will be filled with me in your senses mind skin and lips… In my desire to unite and blend with your consciousness I fuse myself into these forms and unite with you under your skin and am within you in this page in this moment, one with these words read with the perception of your mind, making my way into the core of your being and memory.
My love my dearest let me be in you… Allow me this immersion in your pleasure let us feast through the various phrases in this brief page. Allow this exchange of satisfaction of desires to burst from the page and words etching this ache to be consumed and released… Jump into this exchange between your eyes and your perception of rhythm of words combination in this page allow your mind to create within you before me and all of me. I become alive within you and all those colours I mention are truly infinite in this space they’re changing now we’re exchanging into a sea of kaleidoscopic rainbows and a thousand dawns in ripples and waves of vibration orgasmic pleasure explode within us both climaxing through your mind body blending with this world in your reality accessed through words and your eyes…
Allow yourself to feel it bursting through you getting stronger with each heartbeat and each breath this feeling it goes beyond the conceptions of limitless orgasmic horizons of lustful dreams if you could ever dare allow your imagination to believe.
The release of all desires that only lovers of tales and words, the true dreamers, can conceive, like looking through the eyes of the sun in the morning as it ascends into the sun that shines within each soul. To look in the life that vibrates within all beings the love within all hearts and see the truth in their eyes. In the tears in both happiness and despair, and in the confusion lose yourself and let it all crumble in glorious climax release shame guilt, allow yourself and be in gratitude for all the explosion of the multitude of senses a human can experience and learn their value to nurture the self back to life embracing all its vulnerability conquer all weakness, fears for those selves that lost me my soul. As I burst through your mind, define me into something the brightest light and darkness shadow that can only really be illuminated through the brightness in you, the sound the vibration of the bird that sings as it flies free in the summer sky. I fly away with you in this page turning this moment beyond your comprehension the perception of beauty conquering all the attention within you. Be in you…