Unconditionally loving me Affirmations




I love feeling comfortable, working at the career that I love and that fulfils me.

I am creating beautiful, meaningful relationships everyday with myself and others with every breath that I take, with every heartbeat, with love and kindness, within myself. Continue reading

Loving me positive Affirmations

I am in love!

I have fallen in love with myself and its unconditionally and it was love at first sight!

Who would have thought that I could ever deserve such a supreme exceptional love like the one I am feeling. It feels so good and it’s so pure I have been doing so every day falling in love with me.

I have decided to share some of the very juicy intimate happy romantic moments I have been having with me. I have call them loving me positive affirmations some feelings that have been coming out are so deep and profound. I am so deeply enjoying the love I am giving and receiving from me. I often like many have been s caught up in the habit of looking for love outside of myself. I meet someone who completely made me look within me and I found myself falling in love slowly with me. Continue reading



They are my stars, my sisters and I are close, but live such different lives.There is so much love in me for them and they bring out the best in me.   I love them deeply, we are not perfect but perfectly imperfect.  They inspire me and at times drive me mad and with rage and laughter, fill my life with simply amazing moments and beautiful adventures.  When we we’re little I wanted to marry them when I grew up they truly tried talking me out of not wanting to grow up.  I think I was never really was listening, I kind of never did.  At times I still see myself self as the little girl who didn’t really want to grow up and I was really the last one to want to have a boyfriend.  Who cares about having a proper boyfriend when you can have adventures and explore reality or what ever is really happening!  I love my sisters they thought me to want to learn about being a woman.  I love the women in my life! What are the connections between you and yours sisters would love you share them here with me.




Be Love’s Disease

Infected with the love bug a virus has got a hold of me
My skin blows hot and cold
This turns to warmth the sweat in my pores in each atom just
release and let go
melting inside me borders, opening all the doors
doors that keep me safe but keep me stuck in my patterns of fear and ignorance
Emotions flow somewhere between heaven and paradise
I feel, I accept me and it melts my once cold now warm walls
deep inside me melt with the warm heat of compassion
the ultimate release Continue reading

Orgasm with you…

Maybe I just have to accept that I can comfort myself here where I am alone, in this aloneness.

I am a woman: I love being alive, loved, love being worshiped.

It’s my birthright and the universe this earth made me so I am woman uniquely me and beautiful naturally sensual sexual a being from nature independent, yet codependent, vulnerable, and strong, see me I am here visible I am here alive, exposed, an art form, driven with my breath, warmth, brave, driven, weak, passionate, ecstatic, happy, aroused, amused, orgasmic, a lover, sexual. Continue reading

Being in love…

On the heart, on matters of the heart I have loved mostly because I received very little of it. Love seemed to be the only way I thought it would be possible to be . To be love and not receive love can be quite draining but for a child it can be just about the only way to survive. I only loved because even thou there was a lot pain around e it came from love a need of receiving it. Need of feeling it because of love we endured we survived. It didn’t cost much to say to a child ‘I love you…’

My parents didn’t receive much love and there was a civil war and lots of problems com with it. I when I was a child I wanted to hear the words I love you. I think we all do all things and all people some more then others. I grew into love with myself when I realised that no one can really love you if you don’t love yourself no one can appreciate who you are if you don’t respect yourself. It grows with me every year the need to raise my self love higher and often I show love to myself by kissing my own skin I tell me I love me. I do love me. Truly as I am the only one I will ever truly get to know. I am in me and all the pain transform into tears as I learn to feel and felt I transform it to love. I feel it I breath it in learn from it. When I meet people in Europe in the counties I been to most of them were so empty that if you gave them love they hurt you back, it seem to me they were just empty it and damaged in a different way numb unaware of love even friendship love they sneered at even brotherly love. Some of them were completely ignorant of it or shut their senses to it. It made me realize they all in their different ways also wanted love but from a different place. Where I came from it there was pain atrocity and great lost. Continue reading

In light matters are weightless…

What to say it’s been a while since a have even written about anything.  It’s been so for a good reason.  Well I have been quite unwell for the last four months with Helicopter Pilory a bacteria which can be quite live changing and difficult to live with.  Yet we endure as we look to adapt and evolve and transcend it.  Just feel good about being able to express myself here in this space.  So grateful to say hello in this space called the web. This blog and know that someone somewhere might read it and resonate or totally connect with the energy of what your saying or maybe perhaps no one will read this and that is cool cause I still feel connnected such as being connected to the universe or just exchanging some energy with myself alone in my blog in my room.  Who knows… Continue reading

Returning from the unknown…

Just want to apologise on the huge delay in posting this story.  I hope to make another post explaining but in short life has been quite full of events and demands.  I am so grateful that some of you have still continued visiting the blog and reading the posts.  Also I want to thank you for your support with your comments and your patience you know who you are!   I will be feeling you in on most of my  personal development and other experiences and hope to keep on inspiring you and sharing some of my journey specially the crazy moments and the ones that leave you wondering wtf is she on about.  I’d love also to hear from you and your personal development stories ideas… I love you to share, so what have you been up to?  I wonder what experiences you have been through.  There is so much to learn and see to your words and mine lets connect. It can be here or there anywhere in here or in never land in dreams, you know what I mean? Or just on the web share with me people I want to hear from you.  I want your love and your stories, lets relate…   Eternally grateful to have this opportunity to connect. x Namaste!



Return to the Ayahuasca workshop…

On the way to the workshop it was though to get a cab to where I needed to go so it took lots and lots and lots of phone calls to make myself understood about where exactly I was going which is Hein boeicoposeweg I think that is how it is called. But it was hell to talk to six different Dutch people who didn’t have a clue of what I was saying! Damn that took me to hell and back… I was afraid I would get lost. But then everything just went really well managed to get the correct pronunciation and got to the place! Continue reading